With the crash at Facebook, WhatsApp and Instagram last week showed me was how much I spend on my phone…and yet I can’t seem to put it down. With the world that we live in, our phone is probably the most helpful thing that any
I bought a new phone three months ago to which I absolutely adore. Got it online rather then going to the shop, made me realise by going into a shop, they only offer a little choice in terms of contracts when online you have many options. That can be intimidating for some people but if you take the time to look at them, there’s always gonna be a few that will suit you. I also bought insurance for it, which I’ve never done before but given this was initially a updated version of a iPhone, for me personally it was needed. I am usually good at looking after phones, but I wasn’t going to take any chances. See, I can make adult choices! Anywho, I love my phone, but I’ve realised that I spend too much time on it. Particularly just scrolling, constantly scrolling. I’ve learnt recently that scrolling for a certain amount of time is considered to be an anxiety thing. Social media being the trigger for me. Most of the time, I’m not really missing anything. But it’s also where I get the news and to keep in contact with people. Not that I actually do that much. The people in my life all use different messenger platforms and I can’t stand that. It would be easier if they all used one so I don’t have to bother with other ones, but of course that would make me look like a right D. It’s no wonder people still yearn for the Nokia 3210!
I got my first mobile phone when I was fourteen. I know, fourteen! Nowadays, kids get iPhones when they eight! My school was really strict when it came to phones. Originally, they had to be put in the class cupboard. If I recall, I think that got dropped because it didn’t allow for us to be trusted and also because someone could easily go into the cupboard and take it. So that the changed for our phones to be left in our school bags. That way, the school couldn’t be responsible if the phone gets lost, and as far as I can again recall, no one would dare go into someone else’s bag. Which is weird to me because I’m sure many would have been tempted. Come to think of it, that’s certainly a way to learn about boundaries. The old days of the internet was a weird but in a way, a simple time. The dial up…oh memories. MySpace, oh my emo identity crisis is screaming with happiness. Then Facebook became massive where we would constantly posting our life stories as if it were diaries. Now that we have those memory pages, I cringe every time I come across an old post of me trying to be funny. I guess I was looking for validation in my life, many people would have done. They still do. That’s certainly the biggest love/hate relationship that social media has. It’s wonderful when it’s generally reciprocated, or you will be absolutely alienated. We will certainly have those experiences. The world has changed since the days of MySpace and technology has expanded so much, to the point where the internet has become exciting, but also pretty scary. Just the other day I was conversing with a friend about game currency, how easy it is for kids to sign bank account to and because of that there are children that have gambling addictions. You never think that could happen but it does. There’s no proper control because people generally don’t know how it all thoroughly works, and social media has the same problem. It does make the whole thing rather off putting and often makes me feel frustrated sometimes.
I don’t like that I look at social media so much yet I can’t seem to stop. I have proven that I can live without it before a few times. The longest I lasted was I think was about three weeks. Mainly to avoid Avengers spoilers. I hardly post on Facebook nowadays but I came to the realization that no one actually cares about crazy shit I have to say. That’s what this blog is for(!) I still have a FB page for this blog but again I hardly use it. I would delete it if I could but for some it’s an access for to get to the blog. I like going on Instagram and Twitter, I actually learn alot more from those platforms. But again I hardly post now, it feels more anxiety prone. You go through this battle of should I post this and how people are going to react. I don’t bother mainly because I can’t be bothered. I would like to take a break from social media which I think will do at some point. When the main what I’m going to call Zuckerberg platforms crashed last Monday, I weirdly felt a bliss of relief. I’ve never had that before, which kinda proves that I can live without it. I’ll make it a goal at some point.
Just be you, Sarah x